Is it time yet??

This has been a question lingering in my home for a couple weeks now. Each and every day my two wonderful kiddos ask me- "Is it time for our baby to come out yet?" Each time I smile and gently say "no, not yet", but not too long ago I came to the realization that it will be time very soon!

I am really starting to over-think everything and cause myself anxiety over his arrival. Everything from do we have what we need to how will the delivery be? Over the past couple weeks, I have made lists upon lists of what to do and get before he arrives and yet I still feel a little unprepared. This is the only time I have felt this way in a pregnancy so I am not sure how to react to it.

I am happy to say that this week is spring break up here so every extra-curricular thing we are involved in took a break this week, which has allowed me to get many things on my lists crossed off. Of course some of them are an everyday battle, like keeping the house picked up. We, well I should say I, have been really trying some new activities to get the kiddos involved more in this part and put our reward system back on track. The baby's room is pretty much in order which is a relief, since this time last month it still looked like the 'classroom'. With the week halfway over I am striving to get as much crossed off my list as possible and then just maintain everything as we go along. I guess I should share this goal with my hubby since most the dirty clothes I pick up each morning are his!! So wish me luck on my tasks!

As for the actual arrival of our little man- only four weeks left!! I just can't help but think of how this delivery will go. The other two were very different but with one commonality- very fast! So that makes me a little nervous. And then of course after bringing him home and the kiddos getting jealous or feeling left out is a huge burden that I feel right now. I just pray that all will go smoothly and safely and that everyone will adjust very well!

My last mom thing for today- it suddenly hit me a couple weekends ago that I will only have two kids for just a little while longer. I only have so much time left to give them all my attention. This freaks me out. I can't help but think how Silas will be heading to school in August and then he will be out of the house for 6 hours everyday. I mean all the times lately that I have been so frustrated with him and not handled it in the best way that I could- I don't want our last few months of being home together to be like that. And Brookie is Miss Spotlight. She can entertain herself for awhile, but always has something to show you or needs you for something. I know she will be a very big helper, but how long will it last?? I just pray that I will have the strength to deal with the challenges and handle everything a little better! And I pray even more for Silas and Brookie to somehow understand the changes and not feel neglected.

There is my venting for the month- hope not to bore all you that frequent our blog, but sometimes I just need a listening ear and I'm going to get it one way or another! I will keep you updated on everything as much as possible. Love to all!